So, I decided to dive into this whole tarot thing, and let me tell you, it’s been a wild ride. I picked the “10 of Swords” as my card of the day. Sounds ominous, right? I grabbed my tarot deck and shuffled it, really focusing on what I wanted to learn today.
I pulled the card, and there it was – the 10 of Swords. A guy lying face down with ten swords sticking out of his back. Definitely not the cheeriest image. I felt a little uneasy, to be honest. It kind of made my stomach churn just looking at it.
First, I just stared at the card. I mean, really studied it. The background was dark, but there was a glimmer of light on the horizon. Maybe a sunrise? I noted the details on the guy’s clothes, the way the swords were positioned, everything. I spent a good ten minutes just taking it all in, trying to get a feel for the image itself before I read anything about it.
Next, I grabbed my journal and started jotting down my initial thoughts. “Pain,” “betrayal,” “finality” – those were some of the words that popped into my head. I also wrote about how the image made me feel physically, which was surprisingly tense. I had a knot in my stomach and my shoulders felt tight.
My First Impression
- Looked like a pretty bad day, for sure.
- Thought it was all about endings and maybe feeling defeated.
- Felt kinda down just looking at it.
After that, I did a little digging online to see what the “experts” say about the 10 of Swords. Lots of talk about hitting rock bottom, the end of a cycle, and, yeah, betrayal. But also, a lot of stuff about how this is the darkness before the dawn. That glimmer of light in the background. The idea is that once you’ve hit the absolute bottom, the only way to go is up.
I spent the rest of the day reflecting on this. I thought about areas in my own life where I might be holding onto something that needs to end. Where I might be feeling “stabbed in the back,” even if it’s just by my own negative thoughts. I had to be honest with myself, which was tough, but I did it.
Reflection
- Realized I was holding on to some old grudges.
- Maybe I was being too hard on myself about some past mistakes.
- Felt a little bit of hope, like maybe it was time to let go of some baggage.
Then came the real work: trying to apply this to my day. I consciously tried to let go of those negative thoughts and grudges. I tried to focus on the idea of new beginnings, even in small ways. It wasn’t easy, but I kept reminding myself of that sunrise in the background of the card. I even set it as my phone’s wallpaper as a constant reminder.
By the end of the day, I actually felt… lighter. Like a weight had been lifted, even if just a little. I wouldn’t say it was a complete 180, but I definitely felt a shift. I’m going to keep working with this card and see what else I can uncover. This tarot stuff is definitely more powerful than I thought!